whatever  in my eyes is obstruction. whatever heard is harsh on my ears. 

I don't wanna think of anything.

Even something fun happens to me, but I became disgusted with everything .

If you learn without thinking, you can't understand things truly. If you think without learning, you will be complacent.

学んて思わざれば則ち罔し、思うて学ばざれば則ち殆うし

think well, and learn adequately.