I couldnt do what i'm eager to do recently, what i do is against my willing.

My performance of today's football match was also that way.

Somehow even the sound of fireworks someone set off around my house which i usually feel comfortable is annoying.

Someone please give me some healing for my fucking mentality.
When i felt mortification like this last time?

frustratioooooooooooonnn! exhausteeeeeeeeeeeeed!! Disgusted with myself!!! Shit!!!!!
RETINO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

今日ほとんど英語使ってないので英語で書いてみました
ネガティブな文だけど落ち込んだりしてる訳じゃないよ